Laying things to rest

After much wrestling with my thoughts and emotions, I think I’ve come to a place of rest. Last night I was catching up with a good friend and we were talking about it all, and she just said matter of factly, y’all just dated at the wrong time of your life. I think it made […]

Futile Thoughts

 I’ve talked to several people about my mixed emotions about John’s marriage. Everyone has told me to give it time, which is true. I’m certain that given time I won’t care that he is married and I’ll be glad it wasn’t to me. However, what do you do in the meantime? What do you do […]

Lack of contentment is due to the terrible burden of wanting life on your terms. Shattered dreams are a opportunity to learn contentment.

Mom issues – advice needed

Background: My mom and I have had some really bad times. When I was 18, she basically disowned me, and we had a period of about 5 years where we weren’t speaking to each other or barely speaking to each other. Some of those experiences were so traumatizing that I think I’ve blocked them out […]

You alone are God

Most of you have been reading about my issues with worrying. I was reading one of @Quest4God‘s blog he recommended for me, and a song started playing by Kari Jobe. It was like one of those weird coincidences that you know are more than a coincidence… Jesus, Lover of my soul,All consuming fire is in […]

School Update

I hate that I haven’t been blogging much, but I think it is a sign of how busy I’ve been. I’ve had play practice at least 5 nights a week for the past 5 weeks. Thankfully that is about to be over, but once it is over, I will be out of town for two […]

Boy Update #3

Maybe it is boy update #4, I’ve lost track… I feel bad that all I’ve blog about recently has been him. Honestly, the summer has been so busy so I don’t find I have much time to blog period, but I like to blog about him because I like the feedback and varied options. So […]

Oh crap. He has gone and kissed me. I think now there will be an update sooner than expected, and he and I will need to have a little convo.