Well the tears have finally stopped, but I just feel numb again like I don’t care about anything. Why am I such an emotional mess? I feel like something is seriously wrong with me. I need to do work for school tomorrow, but I don’t feel like it. I don’t feel like doing anything. I […]


Well Holly clogged up with kitchen sink and then asked if I could call our landlord. She is such a fucking idiot. I am so tempted to kick her ass to the curb simply to see her struggle and fail. The only reason I haven’t is that I don’t want to pay her part of […]


I just can’t seem to stop.. The whole thing just makes me really miss Eric and Linda. They use to be my rock. Linda always knew what to say, and she knew how to calm me down. And they both just loved me so well, even when I was such a mess when I wasn’t […]

To live again

Blah. Well, Holly and I went to counseling yesterday. It went ok, but I think I am really frustrated that the lady doesn’t really understand what has gone on for the last year… She kept saying that she gave me permission not to take care of Holly and that I over-function. It just really pissed […]


Now that school is in full-swing, life has been very busy. I am glad to be back at school, and I enjoy work, but I hate coming home and looking at myself in the mirror. Life just really, really sucks. Things with Holly are not good. I think she is seeing Taylor again, and I […]